Lily's English Blog

 A time my mind wanted something different from my heart was when I had to go to the hospital for mental health. My heart really did not want to go because it was hard to be away from my friends. I couldn't have anything with me and felt so lonely. Logically, I knew that I needed to get help, and my mom convinced me to take the step to get the help I needed, even though it was hard. Today in class we read another Emily Dickinson poem about how it feels to try to get over your past relationships.  I know more about how to navigate the difference between what the mind wants and what the heart wants. 

 I doubt myself a lot. I think one specific time is when I first started liking who is now my boyfriend. I overthought everything I said, became more insecure, and even wanted to change things about myself to make him like me more. Now, we have been dating for a year and he makes me feel more comfortable with myself than i ever have. This made me learn to be who I am and I will attract people who I can be myself around and make me feel safe with who i am. Now, I am always genuine when meeting new people, and don't change things about myself to make other people happy. I do what makes me happy because that is what will keep me from going insane.  Today in class we read an Emily Dickinson poem! It was about what it feels like to lose your mind which I thought was interesting to read about.  I really love Emily Dickinson, because my mom made me read a lot of her poems because she is an English Professor. It was cool to get to read one of her poems in class. 

 One thing that makes me different from other people is that is do sound design. I feel like not that many people are interested in sound engineering. I do all of the sound for Lakeside theatre, pep rally's, and even the different history month events. I really enjoy sound design and want to continue working with it throughout my life.  Absent

 An adventure I would like to go on is driving to Menchies with my boyfriend. I love driving and I love frozen yogurt. Frozen yogurt is truly my favorite thing ever. I have gotten there right when they open to have it for breakfast multiple times. It might not seem like an adventure, but the closet one is 40 minutes away.  Today in class we shared our origin myth projects. This was really cool to see other people's creativity! I also learned more about the people in my class.

 The most creative thing I have ever made is probably any of my halloween costumes. Halloween is my favorite holiday and i make all my costumes myself. I have always been into fashion, and wanted to do something with that in my career. My favorite one was Frank from Donnie Darko. My boyfriend was Donnie and i had face paint on. I do face paint at kids birthday parties, so i'm pretty good at it.  Absent in class today. 

 My first burning question about life is if God is real. I have always grown up going to a christian school, but it just doesn't make sense logically for it to be real. I still wonder though, because there is no way to really find out. Another question I have is if mattress firm is a money laundering business or not. I do not understand how there are so many of them open if so many people believe it is a scam. Today in class we made a poster for our short stories. I did about half of mine. This was cool to get to put my story into a visual because pictures help me understand things better.